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Four YearsI
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four years 1887?1891。
at the end of the eighties my father and mother; my brother and sisters and myself; all newly arrived from dublin; were settled in bedford park in a red?brick house with several wood mantlepieces copied from marble mantlepieces by the brothers adam; a balcony; and a little garden shadowed by a great horse?chestnut tree。 years before we had lived there; when the crooked; ostentatiously picturesque streets; with great trees casting great shadows; had been anew enthusiasm: the pre?raphaelite movement at last affecting life。 but now exaggerated criticism had taken the place of enthusiasm; the tiled roofs; the first in modern london; were said to leak; which they did not; & the drains to be bad; though that was no longer true; and i imagine that houses were cheap。 i remember feeling disappointed because the co?operative stores; with their little seventeenth century panes; were so like any mon shop; and because the public house; called the tabard
after chaucers inn; was so plainly a mon public house; and because the great sign of a trumpeter designed by rooke; the pre? raphaelite artist; had been freshened by some inferior hand。 the big red?brick church had never pleased me; and i was accustomed; when i saw the wooden balustrade that ran along the slanting edge of the roof; where nobody ever walked or could walk; to remember the opinion of some architect friend of my fathers; that it had been put there to keep the birds from falling off。 still; however; it had some village characters and helped us to feel not wholly lost in the metropolis。 i no longer went to church as a regular habit; but go i sometimes did; for one sunday morning i saw these words painted on a board in the porch: the congregation are requested to kneel during prayers; the kneelers are afterwards to be hung upon pegs provided for the purpose。 in front of every seat hung a little cushion; and these cushions were called kneelers。 presently the joke ran through the munity; where there were many artists; who considered religion at best an unimportant accessory to good architecture and who disliked that particular church。
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Four YearsII
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i could not understand where the charm had gone that i had felt; when as a school?boy of twelve or thirteen; i had played among the unfinished houses; once leaving the marks of my two hands; blacked by a fall among some paint; upon a white balustrade。 sometimes i thought it was because these were real houses; while my play had been among toy?houses some day to be inhabited by imaginary people full of the happiness that one can see in picture books。 i was in all things pre?raphaelite。 when i was fifteen or sixteen; my father had told me about rossetti and blake and given me their poetry to read; & once in liverpool on my way to sligo; 〃i had seen dantes dream in the gallery there??a picture painted when rossetti had lost his dramatic power; and to?day not very pleasing to me??and its colour; its people; its romantic architecture had blotted all other pictures away。〃 it was a perpetual bewilderment that my father; who had begun life as a pre?raphaelite painter; now painted portraits of the first er; children selling newspapers; or a consumptive girl with a basket offish upon her head; and that when; moved perhaps by memory of his youth; he chose some theme from poetic tradition; he would soon weary and leave it unfinished。 i had seen the change ing bit by bitand its defence elaborated by young men fresh from the paris art? schools。 we must paint what is in front of us; or a man must be of his own time; they would say; and if i spoke of blake or rossetti they would point out his bad drawing and tell me to admire carolus duran and bastien?lepage。 then; too; they were very ignorant men; they read nothing; for nothing mattered but knowing how to paint; being in reaction against a generation that seemed to have wasted its time upon so many things。 i thought myself alone in hating these young men; now indeed getting towards middle life; their contempt for the past; their monopoly of the future; but in a few months i was to discover others of my own age; who thought as i did; for it is not true that youth looks before it with the mechanical gaze of a well?drilled soldier。 its quarrel is not with the past; but with the present; where its elders are so obviously powerful; and no cause seems lost if it seem to threaten that power。
does cultivated youth ever really love the future; where the eye can discover no persecuted royalty hidden among oak leaves; though from it certainly does e so much proletarian rhetoric? i was unlike others of my generation in one thing only。 i am very religious; and deprived by huxley and tyndall; whom i detested; of the simple?minded religion of my childhood; i had made a new religion; almost an infallible church; out of poetic tradition: a fardel of stories; and of personages; and of emotions; a bundle of images and of masks passed on from generation to generation by poets & painters with some help from philosophers and theologians。 i wished for a world where i could discover this tradition perpetually; and not in pictures and in poems only; but in tiles round the chimney?piece and in the hangings that kept out the draught。 i had even created a dogma: because those imaginary people are created out of the deepest instinct of man; to be his measure and his norm; whatever i can imagine those mouths speaking may be the nearest i can go to truth。
when i listened they seemed always to speak of one thing only: they; their loves; every incident of their lives; were steeped in the supernatural。 could even titians ariosto that i loved beyond other portraits; have its grave look; as if waiting for some perfect final event; if the painters; before titian; had not learned portraiture; while painting into the corner of positions; full of saints and madonnas; their kneeling patrons? at seventeen years old i was already an old?fashioned brass cannon full of shot; and nothing kept me from going off but a doubt as to my capacity to shoot straight。
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Four YearsIII
i was not an industrious student and knew only