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their relationship。 Katharine’s answer to his protestation
had been short and sensible。 Half a sheet of notepaper
contained the whole of it; for she merely had to say that
she was not in love with him; and so could not marry
him; but their friendship would continue; she hoped;
unchanged。 She had added a postscript in which she
stated; “I like your son very much。”
So far as William was concerned; this appearance of
ease was assumed。 Three times that afternoon he had
dressed himself in a tailcoat; and three times he had
discarded it for an old dressinggown; three times he had
placed his pearl tiepin in position; and three times he
had removed it again; the little lookingglass in his room
being the witness of these changes of mind。 The question
was; which would Katharine prefer on this particular
afternoon in December? He read her note once more; and
the postscript about the son settled the matter。 Evi
dently she admired most the poet in him; and as this; on
the whole; agreed with his own opinion; he decided to
err; if anything; on the side of shabbiness。 His demeanor
was also regulated with premeditation; he spoke little;
and only on impersonal matters; he wished her to realize
that in visiting him for the first time alone she was doing
nothing remarkable; although; in fact; that was a point
about which he was not at all sure。
Certainly Katharine seemed quite unmoved by any disturbing
thoughts; and if he had been pletely master
of himself; he might; indeed; have plained that she
was a trifle absentminded。 The ease; the familiarity of
the situation alone with Rodney; among teacups and
candles; had more effect upon her than was apparent。
She asked to look at his books; and then at his pictures。
It was while she held photograph from the Greek in her
hands that she exclaimed; impulsively; if incongruously:
“My oysters! I had a basket;” she explained; “and I’ve
left it somewhere。 Uncle Dudley dines with us tonight。
What in the world have I done with them?”
She rose and began to wander about the room。 William
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rose also; and stood in front of the fire; muttering; “Oysters;
oysters—your basket of oysters!” but though he
looked vaguely here and there; as if the oysters might be
on the top of the bookshelf; his eyes returned always to
Katharine。 She drew the curtain and looked out among
the scanty leaves of the plarees。
“I had them;” she calculated; “in the Strand; I sat on a
seat。 Well; never mind;” she concluded; turning back into
the room abruptly; “I dare say some old creature is enjoying
them by this time。”
“I should have thought that you never forgot anything;”
William remarked; as they settled down again。
“That’s part of the myth about me; I know;” Katharine
replied。
“And I wonder;” William proceeded; with some caution;
“what the truth about you is? But I know this sort of
thing doesn’t interest you;” he added hastily; with a touch
of peevishness。
“No; it doesn’t interest me very much;” she replied candidly。
“What shall we talk about then?” he asked。
She looked rather whimsically round the walls of the
room。
“However we start; we end by talking about the same
thing—about poetry; I mean。 I wonder if you realize;
William; that I’ve never read even Shakespeare? It’s rather
wonderful how I’ve kept it up all these years。”
“You’ve kept it up for ten years very beautifully; as far
as I’m concerned;” he said。
“Ten years? So long as that?”
“And I don’t think it’s always bored you;” he added。
She looked into the fire silently。 She could not deny
that the surface of her feeling was absolutely unruffled
by anything in William’s character; on the contrary; she
felt certain that she could deal with whatever turned up。
He gave her peace; in which she could think of things
that were far removed from what they talked about。 Even
now; when he sat within a yard of her; how easily her
mind ranged hither and thither! Suddenly a picture presented
itself before her; without any effort on her part as
pictures will; of herself in these very rooms; she had e
in from a lecture; and she held a pile of books in her
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hand; scientific books; and books about mathematics and
astronomy which she had mastered。 She put them down
on the table over there。 It was a picture plucked from her
life two or three years hence; when she was married to
William; but here she checked herself abruptly。
She could not entirely forget William’s presence; because;
in spite of his efforts to control himself; his nervousness
was apparent。 On such occasions his eyes protruded
more than ever; and his face had more than ever
the appearance of being covered with a thin crackling
skin; through which every flush of his volatile blood
showed itself instantly。 By this time he had shaped so
many sentences and rejected them; felt so many impulses
and subdued them; that he was a uniform scarlet。
“You may say you don’t read books;” he remarked; “but;
all the same; you know about them。 Besides; who wants
you to be learned? Leave that to the poor devils who’ve
got nothing better to do。 You—you—ahem!—”
“Well; then; why don’t you read me something before I
go?” said Katharine; looking at her watch。
“Katharine; you’ve only just e! Let me see now; what
have I got to show you?” He rose; and stirred about the
papers on his table; as if in doubt; he then picked up a
manuscript; and after spreading it smoothly upon his knee;
he looked up at Katharine suspiciously。 He caught her
smiling。
“I believe you only ask me to read out of kindness;” he
burst out。 “Let’s find something else to talk about。 Who
have you been seeing?”
“I don’t generally ask things out of kindness;” Katharine
observed; “however; if you don’t want to read; you
needn’t。”
William gave a queer snort of exasperation; and opened
his manuscript once more; though he kept his eyes upon
her face as he did so。 No face could have been grav