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would not be able to stop myself from killing people。 Strangers； people who had never harmed me。 People
like the growing number of victims in Seattle； who’d had families and friends and futures。 People who’d had
lives。 And I could be the monster who took that away from them。
But； in truth； I could handle that part — because I trusted Edward； trusted him absolutely； to keep me
from doing anything I would regret。 I knew he’d take me to Antarctica and hunt penguins if I asked him to。
And I would do whatever it took to be a good person。 A good vampire。 That thought would have made me
giggle； if not for this new worry。
Because； if I really were somehow like that — like the nightmarish images of newborns that Jasper had
painted in my head — could I possibly be me？ And if all I wanted was to kill people； what would happen to
the things I wanted now？
Edward was so obsessed with me not missing anything while I was human。 Usually； it seemed kind of silly。
There weren’t many human experiences that I worried about missing。 As long as I got to be with Edward；
what else could I ask for？
I stared at his face while he watched Carlisle fix my hand。 There was nothing in this world that I wanted
more than him。 Would that； could that； change？
Was there a human experience that I was not willing to give up？
16。 EPOCH
“I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR！” I MOANED TO MYSELF。
Every item of clothing I owned was strewn across my bed； my drawers and closets were bare。 I stared
into the empty recesses； willing something suitable to appear。
My khaki skirt lay over the back of the rocking chair； waiting for me to discover something that went with
it just exactly right。 Something that would make me look beautiful and grown up。 Something that said special
occasion。 I was ing up empty。
It was almost time to go； and I was still wearing my favorite old sweats。 Unless I could find something
better here — and the odds weren’t looking good at this point — I was going to graduate in them。
I scowled at the pile of clothes on my bed。
The kicker was that I knew exactly what I would have worn if it were still available — my kidnapped red
blouse。 I punched the wall with my good hand。
“Stupid； thieving； annoying vampire！” I growled。
“What did I do？” Alice demanded。
She was leaning casually beside the open window as if she’d been there the whole time。
“Knock； knock；” she added with a grin。
“Is it really so hard to wait for me to get the door？”
She threw a flat； white box onto my bed。 “I’m just passing through。 I thought you might need something to
wear。”
I looked at the big package lying on top of my unsatisfying wardrobe and grimaced。
“Admit it；” Alice said。 “I’m a lifesaver。”
“You’re a lifesaver；” I muttered。 “Thanks。”
“Well； it’s nice to get something right for a change。 You don’t know how irritating it is — missing things
the way I have been。 I feel so useless。 So 。 。 。 normal。” She cringed in horror of the word。
“I can’t imagine how awful that must feel。 Being normal？ Ugh。”
She laughed。 “Well； at least this makes up for missing your annoying thief — now I just have to figure out
what I’m not seeing in Seattle。”
When she said the words that way — putting the two situations together in one sentence — right then it
clicked。 The elusive something that had been bothering me for days； the important connection that I couldn’t
quite put together； suddenly became clear。 I stared at her； my face frozen with whatever expression was
already in place。
“Aren’t you going to open it？” she asked。 She sighed when I didn’t move immediately； and tugged the top
of the box off herself。 She pulled something out and held it up； but I couldn’t concentrate on what it was。
“Pretty； don’t you think？ I picked blue； because I know it’s Edward’s favorite on you。”
I wasn’t listening。
“It’s the same；” I whispered。
“What is？” she demanded。 “You don’t have anything like this。 For crying out loud； you only own one
skirt！”
“No； Alice！ Forget the clothes； listen！”
“You don’t like it？” Alice’s face clouded with disappointment。
“Listen； Alice； don’t you see？ It’s the same！ The one who broke in and stole my things； and the new
vampires in Seattle。 They’re together！”
The clothes slipped from her fingers and fell back into the box。
Alice focused now； her voice suddenly sharp。 “Why do you think that？”
“Remember what Edward said？ About someone using the holes in your vision to keep you from seeing the
newborns？ And then what you said before； about the timing being too perfect — how careful my thief was to
make no contact； as if he knew you would see that。 I think you were right； Alice； I think he did know。 I think
he was using those holes； too。 And what are the odds that two different people not only know enough about
you to do that； but also decided to do it at exactly the same time？ No way。 It’s one person。 The same one。
The one who is making the army is the one who stole my scent。”
Alice wasn’t accustomed to being taking by surprise。 She froze； and was still for so long that I started
counting in my head as I waited。 She didn’t move for two minutes straight。 Then her eyes refocused on me。
“You’re right；” she said in a hollow tone。 “Of course you’re right。 And when you put it that way。 。 。 。”
“Edward had it wrong；” I whispered。 “It was a test 。 。 。 to see if it would work。 If he could get in and out
safely as long as he didn’t do anything you would be watching out for。 Like trying to kill me。 。 。 。 And he didn’t
take my things to prove he’d found me。 He stole my scent 。 。 。 so that others could find me。”
Her eyes were wide with shock。 I was right； and I could see that she knew it； too。
“Oh； no；” she mouthed。
I was through expecting my emotions to make sense anymore。 As I processed the fact that someone had
created an army of vampires — the army that had gruesomely murdered dozens of people in Seattle — for the
express purpose of destroying me； I felt a spasm of relief。
Part of it was finally solving that irri