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back into me… the stinging rain flung down by the purple clouds… the strange fire on the waves… 

There was something familiar about that flash of color on top of the water。 Of course it couldn't really be 
fire— 

My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of a car squelching through the mud on the road outside。 I 
heard it stop in front of the house; and doors started opening and closing。 I thought about sitting up; and 
then decided against that idea。 

Billy's voice was easily identifiable; but he kept it uncharacteristically low; so that it was only a gravelly 
grumble。 

The door opened; and the light flicked on。 I blinked; momentarily blind。 Jake startled awake; gasping and 
jumping to his feet。 

〃Sorry;〃 Billy grunted。 〃Did we wake you?〃 

My eyes slowly focused on his face; and then; as I could read his expression; they filled with tears。 

〃Oh; no; Billy!〃 I moaned。 

He nodded slowly; his expression hard with grief。 Jake hurried to his father and took one of his hands。 
The pain made his face suddenly childlike—it looked odd on top of the man's body。 

Sam was right behind Billy; pushing his chair through the door。 His normal posure was absent from 
his agonized face。 

〃I'm so sorry;〃 I whispered。 

Billy nodded。 〃It's gonna be hard all around。〃 

〃Where's Charlie?〃 

〃Your dad is still at the hospital with Sue。 There are a lot of… arrangements to be made。〃 

I swallowed hard。 

〃I'd better get back there;〃 Sam mumbled; and he ducked hastily out the door。 

Billy pulled his hand away from Jacob; and then he rolled himself through the kitchen toward his room。 

Jake stared after him for a minute; then came to sit on the floor beside me again。 He put his face in his 
hands。 I rubbed his shoulder; wishing I could think of anything to say。 

After a long moment; Jacob caught my hand and held it to his face。 

〃How are you feeling? Are you okay? I probably should have taken you to a doctor or something。〃 He 
sighed。 

〃Don't worry about me;〃 I croaked。 

He twisted his head to look at me。 His eyes were rimmed in red。 〃You don't look so good。〃 

〃I don't feel so good; either; I guess。〃 

〃I'll go get your truck and then take you home—you probably ought to be there when Charlie gets back。〃 

〃Right。〃 

I lay listlessly on the sofa while I waited for him。 Billy was silent in the other room。 I felt like a peeping 
torn; peering through the cracks at a private sorrow that wasn't mine。 

It didn't take Jake long。 The roar of my truck's engine broke the silence before I expected it。 He helped 
me up from the couch without speaking; keeping his arm around my shoulder when the cold air outside 
made me shiver。 He took the driver's seat without asking; and then pulled me next to his side to keep his 
arm tight around me。 I leaned my head against his chest。 

〃How will you get home?〃 I asked。 

〃I'm not going home。 We still haven't caught the bloodsucker; remember?〃 

My next shudder had nothing to do with cold。 

It was a quiet ride after that。 The cold air had woken me up。 My mind was alert; and it was working very 
hard and very fast。 

What if? What was the right thing to do? 

I couldn't imagine my life without Jacob now—I cringed away from the idea of even trying to imagine 
that。 Somehow; he'd bee essential to my survival。 But to leave things the way they were… was that 
cruel; as Mike had accused? 

I remembered wishing that Jacob were my brother。 I realized now that all I really wanted was a claim on 

him。 It didn't feel brotherly when he held me like this。 It just felt nice—warm and forting and familiar。 
Safe。 Jacob was a safe harbor。 

I could stake a claim。 I had that much within my power。 

I'd have to tell him everything; I knew that。 It was the only way to be fair。 I'd have to explain it right; so 
that he'd know I wasn't settling; that he was much too good for me。 He already knew I was broken; that 
part wouldn't surprise him; but he'd need to know the extent of it。 I'd even have to admit that I was 
crazy—explain about the voices I heard。 He'd need to know everything before he made a decision。 

But; even as I recognized that necessity; I knew he would take me in spite of it all。 He wouldn't even 
pause to think it through。 

I would have to mit to this—mit as much of me as there was left; every one of the broken 
pieces。 It was the only way to be fair to him。 Would I? Could I? 

Would it be so wrong to try to make Jacob happy? Even if the love I felt for him was no more than a 
weak echo of what I was capable of; even if my heart was far away; wandering and grieving after my 
fickle Romeo; would it be so very wrong? 

Jacob stopped the truck in front of my dark house; cutting the engine so it was suddenly silent。 Like so 
many other times; he seemed to be in tune with my thoughts now。 

He threw his other arm around me; crushing me against his cheat; binding me to him。 Again; this felt nice。 
Almost like being a whole person again。 

I thought he would be thinking of Harry; but then he spoke; and his tone was apologetic。 〃Sorry。 I 
know you don't feel exactly the way I do; Bella。 I swear I don't mind。 I'm just so glad you're okay that I 
could sing—and that's something no one wants to hear。〃 He laughed his throaty laugh in my ear。 

My breathing kicked up a notch; sanding the walls of my throat。 

Wouldn't Edward; indifferent as he might be; want me to be as happy as possible under the 
circumstances? Wouldn't enough friendly emotion linger for him to want that much for me? I thought he 
would。 He wouldn't begrudge me this: giving just a small bit of love he didn't want to my friend Jacob。 
After all; it wasn't the same love at all。 

Jake pressed his warm cheek against the top of my hair。 

If I turned my face to the side—if I pressed my lips against his bare shoulder。。。 I knew without any doubt 
what would follow。 It would be very easy。 There would be no need for explanations tonight。 

But could I do it? Could I betray my absent heart to save my pathetic life? 

Butterflies assaulted my stomach as I thought of turning my head。 

And then; as clearly as if I were in
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