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〃His greatgrandfather；〃 Jacob clarified。 〃The Quil you know is my second cousin。〃
〃But why does it matter who your greatgrandfathers are？〃
〃Because Ephraim and Quil were in the last pack。 Levi Uley was the third。 It's in my blood on both sides。
I never had a chance。 Like Quil doesn't have a chance。〃
His expression was bleak。
〃What's the very best part？〃 I asked； hoping to cheer him up。
〃The best part；〃 he said； suddenly smiling again； 〃is the speed。〃
〃Better than the motorcycles？〃
He nodded； enthusiastic。 〃There's no parison。〃
〃How fast can you… ？〃
〃Run？〃 he finished my question。 〃Fast enough。 What can I measure it by？ We caught… what was his
name？ Laurent？ I imagine that means more to you than it would to someone else。〃
It did mean something to me。 I couldn't imagine that—the wolves running faster than a vampire。 When the
Cullens ran； they all but turned invisible with speed。
〃So； tell me something I don't know；〃 he said。 〃Something about vampires。 How did you stand it； being
around them？ Didn't it creep you out？〃
〃No；〃 I said curtly。
My tone made him thoughtful for a moment。
〃Say； why'd your bloodsucker kill that James； anyway？〃 he asked suddenly。
〃James was trying to kill me—it was like a game for him。 He lost。 Do you remember last spring when I
was in the hospital down in Phoenix？〃
Jacob sucked in a breath。 〃He got that close？〃
〃He got very； very close。〃 I stroked my scar。 Jacob noticed； because he held the hand I moved。
〃What's that？〃 He traded hands； examining my right。 〃This is your funny scar； the cold one。〃 He looked at
it closer； with new eyes； and gasped。
〃Yes； it's what you think it is；〃 I said。 〃James bit me。〃
His eyes bulged； and his face turned a strange； sallow color under the russet surface。 He looked like he
was about to be sick。
〃But if he bit you… ？ Shouldn't you be… ？〃 He choked。
〃Edward saved me twice；〃 I whispered。 〃He sucked the venom out—you know； like with a rattlesnake。〃
I twitched as the pain lashed around the edges of the hole。
But I wasn't the only one twitching。 I could feel Jacob's whole body trembling next to mine。 Even the car
shook。
〃Careful； Jake。 Easy。 Ca in down。〃
〃Yeah；〃 he panted。 〃Calm。〃 He shook his head back and forth quickly。 After a moment； only his hands
were shaking。
〃You okay？〃
〃Yeah； almost。 Tell me something else。 Give me something else to think about。〃
〃What do you want to know？〃
〃I don't know。〃 He had his eyes closed； concentrating。 〃The extra stuff I guess。 Did any of the other
Cullens have… extra talents？ Like the mind reading？〃
I hesitated a second。 This felt like a question he would ask of his spy； not his friend。 But what was the
point of hiding what I knew？ It didn't matter now； and it would help him control himself。
So I spoke quickly； the image of Emily's ruined face in my mind； and the hair rising on my arms。 I couldn't
imagine how the russet wolf would fit inside the Rabbit—Jacob would tear the whole garage apart if he
changed now。
〃Jasper could… sort of control the emotions of the people around him。 Not in a bad way； just to calm
someone down； that kind of thing。 It would probably help Paul a lot；〃 I added； teasing weakly。 〃And then
Alice could see things that were going to happen。 The future； you know； but not absolutely。 The things
she saw would change when someone changed the path they were on…〃
Like how she'd seen me dying… and she'd seen me being one of them。 Two things that had not
happened。 And one that never would。 My head started to spin—I couldn't seem to pull in enough oxygen
from the air。 No lungs。
Jacob was entirely in control now； very still beside me。
〃Why do you do that？〃 he asked。 He tugged lightly at one of my arms； which was bound around my
chest； and then gave up when it wouldn't e loose easily。 I hadn't even realized I'd moved them。 〃You
do that when you're upset。 Why？〃
〃It hurts to think about them；〃 I whispered。 〃It's like I can't breathe… like I'm breaking into pieces…〃It
was bizarre how much I could tell Jacob now。 We had no more secrets。
He smoothed my hair。 〃It's okay； Bella； it's okay。 I won't bring it up again。 I'm sorry。〃
〃I'm fine。〃 I gasped。 〃Happens all the time。 Not your fault。〃
〃We're a pretty messedup pair； aren't we？〃 Jacob said。 〃Neither one of us can hold our shape together
right。〃
〃Pathetic；〃 I agreed； still breathless。
〃At least we have each other；〃 he said； clearly forted by the thought。
I was forted； too。 〃At least there's that；〃 I agreed。
And when we were together； it was fine。 But Jacob had a horrible； dangerous job he felt pelled to
do； and so I was often alone； stuck in La Push for safety； with nothing to do to keep my mind off any of
my worries。
I felt awkward； always taking up space at Billy's。 I did some studying for another Calculus test that was
ing up next week； but I could only look at math for so long。 When I didn't have something obvious to
do in my hands；
I felt like I ought to be making conversation with Billy—the pressure of normal societal rules。 But Billy
wasn't one for filling up the long silences； and so the awkwardness continued。
I tried hanging out at Emily's place Wednesday afternoon； for a change。 At first it was kind of nice。 Emily
was a cheerful person who never sat still。 I drifted behind her while she flitted around her little house and
yard； scrubbing at the spotless floor； pulling a tiny weed； fixing a broken hinge； tugging a string of wool
through an ancient loom； and always cooking； too。 She plained lightly about the increase in the boys'
appetites from all their extra running； but it was easy to see she didn't mind taking care of them。 It wasn't
hard to be with her—after all； we were both wolf girls now。
But Sam checked in after I'd been there for a few hours。 I only stayed long enough to ascertain that
Jacob was fine and there was no news； and then I had to escape。 The aura of love and contentment that
surrounded them was harder to take in concentrated doses； with no one else around to dilute it。
So that left me