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That caught me off guard。 〃Sam treats you special？〃
〃Yeah；〃 he agreed； looking up at me with troubled eyes。 〃He looks at me like he's waiting for
something… like I'm going to join his stupid gang someday。 He pays more attention to me than any of the
other guys。 I hate it。〃
〃You don't have to join anything。〃 My voice was angry。 This was really upsetting Jacob； and that
infuriated me。 Who did these 〃protectors〃 think they were？
〃Yeah。〃 His foot kept up its rhythm against the tire。
〃What？〃 I could tell there was more。
He frowned； his eyebrows pulling up in a way that looked sad and worried rather than angry。 〃It's
Embry。 He's been avoiding me lately。〃
The thoughts didn't seem connected； but I wondered if I was to blame for the problems with his friend。
〃You've been hanging out with me a lot；〃 I reminded him； feeling selfish。 I'd been monopolizing him。
〃No； that's not it。 It's not just me—it's Quil； too； and everyone。 Embry missed a week of school； but he
was never home when we tried to see him。 And when he came back； he looked… he looked freaked
out。 Terrified。 Quil and I both tried to get him to tell us what was wrong； but he wouldn't talk to either
one of us。〃
I stared at Jacob； biting my lip anxiously—he was really frightened。 But he didn't look at me。 He watched
his own foot kicking the rubber as if it belonged to someone else。 The tempo increased。
〃Then this week； out of nowhere； Embry's hanging out with Sam and the rest of them。 He was out on the
cliffs today。〃 His voice was low and tense。
He finally looked at me。 〃Bella； they bugged him even more than they bother me。 He didn't want anything
to do with them。 And now Embry's following Sam around like he's joined a cult。
〃And that's the way it was with Paul。 Just exactly the same。 He wasn't friends with Sam at all。 Then he
stopped ing to school for a few weeks； and； when he came back； suddenly Sam owned him。 I don't
know what it means。 I can't figure it out； and I feel like I have to； because Embry's my friend and…
Sam's looking at me funny 。 。 and…〃 He trailed off。
〃Have you talked to Billy about this？〃 I asked。 His horror was spreading to me。 I had chills running on the
back of my neck。
Now there was anger on his face。 〃Yes；〃 he snorted。 〃That was helpful。〃
〃What did he say？〃
Jacob's expression was sarcastic； and when he spoke； his voice mocked the deep tones of his father's
voice。 〃It's nothing you need to worry about now； Jacob。 In a few years； if you don't… well； I'll explain
later。〃 And then his voice was his own。 〃What am I supposed to get from that？ Is he trying to say it's
some stupid puberty； ingofage thing？ This is something else。 Something wrong。〃
He was biting his lower lip and clenching his hands。 He looked like he was about to cry。
I threw my arms around him instinctively； wrapping them around his waist and pressing my face against
his chest。 He was so big； I felt like I was a child hugging a grownup。
〃Oh； Jake； it'll be okay！〃 I promised。 〃If it gets worse you can e live with me and Charlie。 Don't be
scared； we'll think of something！〃
He was frozen for a second； and then his long arms wrapped hesitantly around me。 〃Thanks； Bella。〃 His
voice was huskier than usual。
We stood like that for a moment； and it didn't upset me； in fact； I felt forted by the contact。 This
didn't feel anything like the last time someone had embraced me this way。 This was friendship。 And Jacob
was very warm。
It was strange for me； being this close—emotionally rather than physically； though the physical was
strange for me； too—to another human being。 It wasn't my usual style。 I didn't normally relate to people
so easily； on such a basic level。
Not human beings。
〃If this is how you're going to react； I'll freak out more often。〃 Jacob's voice was light； normal again； and
his laughter rumbled against my ear。 His fingers touched my hair； soft and tentative。
Well； it was friendship for me。
I pulled away quickly； laughing with him； but determined to put things back in perspective at once。
〃It's hard to believe I'm two years older than you；〃 I said； emphasizing the word older。 〃You make me
feel like a dwarf。〃 Standing this close to him； I really had to crane my neck to see his face。
〃You're forgetting I'm in my forties； of course。〃
〃Oh； that's right。〃
He patted my head。 〃You're like a little doll；〃 he teased。 〃A porcelain doll。〃
I rolled my eyes； taking another step away。 〃Let's not start with the albino cracks。〃
〃Seriously； Bella； are you sure you're not？〃 He stretched his russet arm out next to mine。 The difference
wasn't flattering。 〃I've never seen anyone paler than you… well； except for—〃 He broke off； and I
looked away； trying to not understand what he had been about to say。
〃So are we going to ride or what？〃
〃Let's do it；〃 I agreed； more enthusiastic than I would have been half a minute ago。 His unfinished
sentence reminded me of why I was here。
8。 ADRENALINE
〃OKAY； WHERE'S YOUR CLUTCH？〃
I pointed to the lever on my left handlebar。 Letting go of the grip was a mistake。 The heavy bike wobbled
underneath me； threatening to knock me sidewise。 I grabbed the handle again； trying to hold it straight。
〃Jacob； it won't stay up；〃 I plained。
〃It will when you're moving；〃 he promised。 〃Now where's your brake？〃
〃Behind my right foot。〃
〃Wrong。〃
He grabbed my right hand and curled my fingers around the lever over the throttle。
〃But you said—〃
〃This is the brake you want。 Don't use the back brake now； that's for later； when you know what you're
doing。〃
〃That doesn't sound right；〃 I said suspiciously。 〃Aren't both brakes kind of important？〃
〃Forget the back brake； okay？ Here—〃 He wrapped his hand around mine and made me squeeze the
lever down。 〃That is how you brake。 Don't forget。〃 He squeezed my hand another time。
〃Fine；〃 I agreed。
〃Throttle？〃
I twisted the right grip。
〃Gearshift？〃
I nudged it with my left calf。
〃Very good。 I think you've got all the parts down。 Now you just have to get itmoving。〃
〃Uhhuh；〃 I mut