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suspicious。
〃Why are you asking me？〃 she asked； still unfriendly。
〃You're the first person I think of when I want girl time。〃 I smiled； and I hoped the smile looked genuine。
It was probably true。 She was at least the first person I thought of when I wanted to avoid Charlie。 It
amounted to the same thing。
She seemed a little mollified。 〃Well； I don't know。〃
〃Do you have plans？〃
〃No… I guess I can go with you。 What do you want to see？〃
〃I'm not sure what's playing；〃 I hedged。 This was the tricky part。 I racked my brain for a clue—hadn't I
heard someone talk about a movie recently？ Seen a poster？ 〃How about that one with the female
president？〃
She looked at me oddly。 〃Bella； that one's been out of the theater forever。〃
〃Oh。〃 I frowned。 〃Is there anything you'd like to see？〃
Jessica's natural bubbliness started to leak out in spite of herself as she thought out loud。 〃Well； there's
that new romantic edy that's getting great reviews。 I want to see that one。 And my dad just saw
Dead End and he really liked it。〃
I grasped at the promising title。 〃What's that one about？〃
〃Zombies or something。 He said it was the scariest thing he'd seen in years。〃
〃That sounds perfect。〃 I'd rather deal with real zombies than watch a romance。
〃Okay。〃 She seemed surprised by my response。 I tried to remember if I liked scary movies； but I wasn't
sure。 〃Do you want me to pick you up after school？〃 she offered。
〃Sure。〃
Jessica smiled at me with tentative friendliness before she left。 My answering smile was just a little late；
but I thought that she saw it。
The rest of the day passed quickly； my thoughts focused on planning for tonight。 I knew from experience
that once I got Jessica talking； I would be able to get away with a few mumbled responses at the
appropriate moments。 Only minimal interaction would be required。
The thick haze that blurred my days now was sometimes confusing。 I was surprised when I found myself
in my room； not clearly remembering the drive home from school or even opening the front door。 But that
didn't matter。 Losing track of time was the most I asked from life。
I didn't fight the haze as I turned to my closet。 The numbness was more essential in some places than in
others。 I barely registered what I was looking at as I slid the door aside to reveal the pile of rubbish on
the left side of my closet； under the clothes I never wore。
My eyes did not stray toward the black garbage bag that held my present from that last birthday； did not
see the shape of the stereo where it strained against the black plastic； I didn't think of the bloody mess
my nails had been when I'd finished clawing it out of the dashboard。
I yanked the old purse I rarely used off the nail it hung from； and shoved the door shut。
Just then I heard a horn honking。 I swiftly traded my wallet from my schoolbag into the purse。 I was in a
hurry； as if rushing would somehow make the night pass more quickly。
I glanced at myself in the hall mirror before I opened the door； arranging my features carefully into a smile
and trying to hold them there。
〃Thanks for ing with me tonight；〃 I told Jess as I climbed into the passenger seat； trying to infuse my
tone with gratitude。 It had been a while since I'd really thought about what I was saying to anyone
besides Charlie。 Jess was harder。 I wasn't sure which were the right emotions to fake。
〃Sure。 So； what brought this on？〃 Jess wondered as she drove down my street。
〃Brought what on？〃
〃Why did you suddenly decide… to go out？〃 It sounded like she changed her question halfway through。
I shrugged。 〃Just needed a change。〃
I recognized the song on the radio then； and quickly reached for the dial。 〃Do you mind？〃 I asked。
〃No； go ahead。〃
I scanned through the stations until I found one that was harmless。 I peeked at Jess's expression as the
new music filled the car。
Her eyes squinted。 〃Since when do you listen to rap？〃
〃I don't know；〃 I said。 〃A while。〃
〃You like this？〃 she asked doubtfully。
〃Sure。〃
It would be much too hard to interact with Jessica normally if I had to work to tune out the music； too。 I
nodded my head； hoping I was in time with the beat。
〃Okay…〃 She stared out the windshield with wide eyes。
〃So what's up with you and Mike these days？〃 I asked quickly。
〃You see him more than I do。〃
The question hadn't started her talking like I'd hoped it would。
〃It's hard to talk at work；〃 I mumbled； and then I tried again。 〃Have you been out with anyone lately？〃
〃Not really。 I go out with Conner sometimes。 I went out with Eric two weeks ago。〃 She rolled her eyes；
and I sensed a long story。 I clutched at the opportunity。
〃Eric Yorkie？ Who asked who？〃
She groaned； getting more animated。 〃He did； of course！ I couldn't think of a nice way to say no。〃
〃Where did he take you？〃 I demanded； knowing she would interpret my eagerness as interest。 〃Tell me
all about it。〃
She launched into her tale； and I settled into my seat； more fortable now。 I paid strict attention；
murmuring in sympathy and gasping in horror as called for。 When she was finished with her Eric story；
she continued into a Conner parison without any prodding。
The movie was playing early； so Jess thought we should hit the twilight showing and eat later。 I was
happy to go along with whatever she wanted； after all； I was getting what I wanted—Charlie off my
back。
I kept Jess talking through the previews； so I could ignore them more easily。 But I got nervous when the
movie started。 A young couple was walking along a beach； swinging hands and discussing their mutual
affection with gooey falseness。 I resisted the urge to cover my ears and start humming。 I had not
bargained for a romance。
〃I thought we picked the zombie movie；〃 I hissed to Jessica。
〃This is the zombie movie。〃
〃Then why isn't anyone getting eaten？〃 I asked desperately。
She looked at me with wide eyes that were almost alarmed。 〃I'm sure that part's ing；〃 she whispered。
〃I'm getting popcorn。 Do you want any？〃
〃No； thanks。〃
Someone shushed us fr